I had to make it to 100 before the year ended...so here is probably my favorite New Year's song (and possibly the only New Year's song I know...oh wait, there is that one by Death Cab..anyway, not important...) sung by two of my favorite famous people. As one of the youtube comments said, "is it normal to have a crush on both of them?"
It was a good year. What if we made this next year even better? I'm sure going to try.
This is one of those times when a song has seemingly captured exactly what I'm feeling, but why did it have to be this song by this person?
I just was thinking about how some day I will (hopefully) be somebody's first priority, a person that will think,"You know, I would like to be with Shae right about now." Before I sound like a whiny dramatic girl, I would like to say that in my self-pity, I read all of our old posts, and I feel a lot better now.
So, I guess I want to say thank you for doing this blog with me; we're coming up on 100 posts now! :] Well done to us.
Christmas is a time for family. And in my family, at least nine of my sisters/cousins have had babies or gotten pregnant this year that I can think of right now, and there are even more with very small children. And while I did really love cuddling with my sleepy six-month old nephew, thinking about this kind of freaked me out. Especially when my aunt, after informing my twenty-something year old sister who isn't married and I that she now has eight grandchildren, said "You guys need to get on that, your parents need some more grandchildren." I just turned 19, and I realized that I am now potentially going to be considered in the pool of marriage-eligible cousins ("who do you think will get married next?" is a favorite game at family gatherings on both sides. Since there are quite a few cousins that are now married, the "who do you think will have a baby next?" version is also quite popular). I am very young, and of course I realize that there is no reason I need to get married and start having babies right now, that is silly, but spending so much time with my very "Utah Mormon" extended family has kind of immersed me again in that culture, and I'm not sure how I feel about some aspects of it.
But, taking into account one of my cousin's words which were said mostly (I think) jokingly to my other sister, I won't really need to worry about any of that anyway...(he really is a great guy and I think since they are both not married he really was just joking, and a lot of this is kind of out of context)...he just said things like "personality is not enough for a guy, you also need to be attractive, guys like it when you wear like five different types of makeup, don't overdo it but they like when you have a lot of different kinds of makeup you wear. You also have to smell really good, maybe like fruity or like vanilla, I need to talk to my girlfriend about smelling more girly actually...guys like ambitious girls but not in a threatening way...they don't dislike things like going to law school or necessarily want a girl in hair school, but ideal would be like a girl who is in law school but acts like she's in hair school." I guess life is even more complicated than I thought...but trying to be a perfect "guys' girl" at this point might be too difficult for me, so I'll most likely just stick with my original plan of living my life and trying to balance being nice to people while doing what makes me happy. And following my heart, of course.
On a sort of related note, these are for some reason my new favorite videos right now. This really is what girls are like. But not in a way that makes me feel like it's just stereotyping negatively (I think I could be something of a feminist if enough fuel was added to that fire. except for the fact that I don't really like female sports announcers). It kind of makes me feel happy and connected with girldom, because I do say some of these things. A lot.
People always say that we need bad times to appreciate the good. Well, it is my personal opinion that we need the good times just as much to see that the bad really isn't that bad. There are tons and tons of people that have had much worse times than I have, and I can't speak for anyone else, but in my own situation I'm glad of these reminders that more often than not I'm being rather silly, and life is actually pretty grand.
I am pretty sure that if I stay on track with being an art major, there is a chance I will look something like this. I don't know if I'm ready to commit myself to art in this manner.
It seems like life is getting harder. But I think that's how it's supposed to work. That way, we're able to figure out who we're supposed to keep around as the ones that mean the most get better and better at helping us through those hard times.
--Shae
Oh, gee, look at the time. Turns out it's actually Monday. At any rate, I just want to say that I'm incredibly glad to be on break. Its about day three and already it is the best thing ever. One big perk includes sleeping in, especially on Sundays. And getting to go to my old single's ward, which I love and miss sometimes. Today a girl that I didn't know gave the lesson, and she said something that I just now remembered, and am going to try to remember, something her father told her:
"When it comes to living your life, direction is more important than speed."
Sounds simple enough, but its really true. If I can stay focused on the right directions that I want to be headed, I think that things will work out.
On an unrelated note, I am doing this at your wedding. Sorry to ruin the surprise.
I think the answer is, "Only with some 19th birthday magic."
HAPPY DAY!
--Shae
I know it's far from perfect, and there will be a lot of problems, and I'm still hearing a lot of criticism, but at least its a start. Thanks for the birthday present, America.
"American forces, arriving in Kuwait in one of the last convoys out of Iraq, took the same highway they came in on in 2003"
When I first started college, I remember wondering if I was supposed to buy binders and loose-leaf paper...now I'm wondering what I was expecting to use?
--Shae
once again, I just finished an entire pint of Jimmy Fallon's Late Night Snack by Ben and Jerry's. Never have I, nor ever will I feel good about myself after doing this. When will I learn?
Sometimes, when I am on the shuttle, I imagine what role each passenger would take if something movie-worthy happened to us, like being transported to a desert island or going back in time and having to survive among the dinosaurs. What would happen if each of us were the only other people we ever saw? I like to think that I can do this pretty effectively without looking at anyone for a creepy amount of time. I also just realized that I never know what role I would play.
This is probably where I get it from. I don't know why I love this movie so much.
I decided that I really hate that people use the saying "you fight like a married couple" when talking to people who argue all the time. I hope that if I get married, it's to someone that I laugh with more than I fight with. In fact, I think that's a goal of mine now.
--Shae
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While studying, I came across a website with this as its description (yes, all of the typos are original). It doesn't stop there; there are links to the top 25, 50, and 100 best essay sites on the web. All of the exclamation marks and bad grammar through the rest of the page only make me more disgusted. I have to say that I'm tempted to ask for an essay on "virtually" any topic, maybe the rise and fall of the White Witch and the politics of Narnia under the winter spell?
So I feel kind of lame for coming on here to post yet another video (which in and of itself is lame, I know) and seeing that you posted something that is real and meaningful. I guess this is just something that we all wish was real and meaningful.This is a scene from Love, Actually, a favorite movie of some of my sisters. I've only seen some scenes of it, but the parts I've seen are awesome. Sometimes you just have to watch a few minutes of the kind of movie love that doesn't really happen in real life, but makes you say "awww."
Yes, I know that I said I wasn't going to get on till after finals, but I've come to realize (through personalize experience) that one will go insane if one tries to study for two weeks straight. So I'm selling out a little, but in a good way.
I really can't believe how much I've learned this semester. People keep giving me information, and (with some divine help, I'm sure) I've been able to understand a lot of it; more than I ever thought I could, that's for sure. For instance, did you know that there is a spider (the Bolas spider actually) that doesn't make a web, but that uses her silk to fish for her prey? Seriously.
Yes, these are the videos we're subjected to in the class "Of Maggots, Mites, and Men."
Besides this useful information, I've also learned so much about myself, so much that I can't even start to put it all here. I just wanted to say that college is kinda what makes us or breaks us, not just as successful career-holding citizens, but more importantly as the people we want to be for the rest of our lives. Sure we can always try to change as we get older, but it will be a lot less painful to start working on old-lady Shae while I'm still college-freshman Shae.
I think that I'm going to make it through finals, even though I really don't even know if I know what I need to know. I would like to do better than just make it through, but I have no idea what the future weeks of test-taking and final project-making hold for me. I know that studying and working hard will pay off, so there will definitely be a lot of that going on. I feel like I'm rambling right now, so basically what I want to say is that everything will be okay, and that is mostly just to make myself feel better. I'm going to try my hardest, and that's really all I can do, right? I guess this is going to have to start with getting rid of distractions that I can control; basically everything on the internet. So, this is me saying goodbye to social-networking, video-watching, and, yes, blogging ;( for about two weeks. Wish me luck! Even though I won't be able to see it until after the fact...
--Shae
P.S. I tried to look up a funny picture of "wasting time on the internet" but Google's predictions led me to another search. Obviously, "wasting toilet water" is an epidemic. One expert said, "Good toilet habits are one thing, but a good, healthy toilet is a whole other subject."
And now you know why I have to stay off the web for a while.
I love a lot of things about Christmastime, and one thing that sounds silly but that I look forward to in particular are the Christmas movies. I really like the funny, cute ones like Elf, White Christmas, A Christmas Story and so on, but there are two that are much more meaningful that I must watch every year. The first is It's A Wonderful Life, and no explanation is really needed there; it's a classic in every sense of the word. But the second is one that I don't think as many people have seen. The English title is Merry Christmas.
This morning, the score from the movie somehow popped into my head, and it made me so unbelievably excited to go home and watch it. The movie is just an incredible heartbreaking and hopeful mix of all that can be good about a movie, with stunning music and a beautifully sad story, and I'm running out of words to describe how I feel about it. I think is it safe to say that the rest of my family feels the same way, since after first seeing it my mom bought copies for us and all of her siblings, as well as the soundtrack (which I am listening to right now). Also, we named our cat Nestor after the cat in the movie.
I just want to whole world to see it.
Here is at least the preview, which doesn't really do it justice, but all the clips I found on Youtube had no subtitles. (The movie is French, but there is also English and German spoken throughout. Don't let that throw you off.) I actually teared up a little just watching the trailer, and I don't really ever cry. I dare you to watch the movie totally dry-eyed.
If anyone is interested in watching it, I will watch it with you. After we make cookies. Because I like cookies.
I'm not going to pretend that I really knew that much about Steve Jobs before he died and that it affected me that much, but ever since then I have seen a lot of quotes and things by him. He had a lot of good things to say, apparently. It's kind of sad that the thing that made these things known to me was his death, but, what can you do? Anyway, there are two quotes in particular that have really stuck with me. Quotes are funny; you hear so many of them all the time, and I don't really know what makes some of them mean more than others. But, here we go:
1. I have heard this said a lot of time in a lot of different ways (most notably with the "Good, Better, Best" talk), but for some reason this way just made sense to me:
“People think focus means saying yes to the thing you’ve got to focus on. But that’s not what it means at all. It means saying no to the hundred other good ideas that there are. You have to pick carefully"
2. I just liked this one because of the new perspective it gave me. I don't know.
"Life can be much broader once you discover one simple fact, and that is, everything around you that you call life was made up by people that were no smarter than you ... the minute that you understand that you can poke life ... that you can change it, you can mould it ... that's maybe the most important thing."
