ups & downs

There's this phenomenon that I've been experiencing for the last little while. Here's how it goes:

• I see a picture of someone that I have been really close to.
• I think of funny things that they've said or that have happened while we've been together.
• I remember that we haven't talked in a while.
• I think, "Do I even know you any more?"
• I feel like there are so many things about them (especially physically) that I've never noticed before. 

I really hate this and it keeps happening. It's probably top ten on my list of feelings that I don't like feeling. How can it be that at one point someone can be such a big part of your life and then, just not?

...I'll figure it out.

On a more optimistic note, I saw this once without even planning on it.

It came at a time when I really needed be reminded that there's so much more to life than just me. How can it be that at one point I can think I have everything figured out and then, I can politely be humbled (but end up completely content with said humbleness)?

...I'll figure it out.