"We Regret to Inform You..."

You can only hear those words so many times before you start to doubt your self-worth. And then people try to make it better by telling you that you did your best, and all you want to say is: "Yeah, that's the problem; obviously, my best sucks." *sigh*
     But I do think that I have a way to get myself out of this funk. First of all, I can honestly say that I'm trying to realize that "opportunity" is one of those words we think we understand, when our human brains actually aren't experienced enough yet to know what opportunity really is. Maybe, opportunity really happens when we think we've lost an opportunity and that allows for something else to happen (you know, "when things fall apart so other things can come together"). I am realizing that maybe not getting everything I think I want is just one of those things that I need to learn how to deal with, one of those things that I think are an "interruption to my real life" when really, they are a crucial part of my experience here. Second of all (I kind of rambled, so maybe you forgot there was a "first of all," but it's there, a while back), you know what I realized? I realized that every day, I pray that I will be able to get through the day. Literally, I ask, "Please, let me make it through this day/week/semester/part of my life." Why get through when you can THRIVE through? Today, I asked, "Please help me to thrive through this day." Yes, I plan on conquering this day, and hopefully every day after that. I already feel like a super hero. Now I am going to go, because I have diem to carpe.