I am a quiet person, I think we can agree on that. It takes a long time for me to really show my sense of humor in front of people (mostly because I've had too many instances where my sarcasm has not been understood and there's just too much misunderstanding for me to handle). I've never been the life of the party, and I'm not very good at making a friends with everyone I meet (I think that part stems from the fact that I just want people to like me if they like me, and not because I make them. It's whatever). When I hang out with new people and want to be friends with them, far too often I end up thinking, "You should have said that witty comment when you were talking to them! Now it's too late and they're not interested at all." I'm just a natural wallflower. And you know what? I've decided that I'm okay with being that. No, I will not get texts from numerous people to hang out every weekend, and no, I will not hit 1,000+ friends on my Facebook. But, I will have people in my life who I want to be around and who want to be around me. I will be known as the shy girl, but maybe the people who take the time to figure out who I am will want to get to know me more. I'm not saying either way is better, and I'm sure there's a good medium level somewhere in between, but I guess the point of this post is that I'm beginning to be okay with me. Before, I've always prayed that I could be one of those people who everyone gravitates towards and goes to when they want to partay, but now, I just pray that I can be the best version of me, and that I'll find people that appreciate that.
I think I deserve that.
I think we ALL deserve that.
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