Called To Serve

I can't watch this without crying happy tears. A lot. I still can't believe the words that come out of his mouth. Everything that has happened to me and feelings I have felt make so much sense to me now. It's like I've skipped a year of my life (which is weird). There's so much going through my mind (you can probably tell from the un-flowiness of this post). But the overriding thought is that the world is ready for the biggest rush of missionary work that it has yet seen. And that I am going to be a part of it. It feels so right that I don't actually know if I've felt this peaceful before. I'm scared, and  I'm nervous, and at the same time, I know it's going to be amazing. It's possible that I won't be going until I was planning on it anyway, I still have a lot of deep thought and prayer to give (as I'm sure people all over the world do), but it's all just so real. I know that I was put on the earth at the precise time I was so that I could be at this point today. If I were meant to go on a mission at another time, I would have been born at another time. I can just feel that this is something bigger than any of us realize, and that the world is changing, starting from the minute this announcement was made. Ha ha I think I cried the entire first session. I've already found myself worrying about things like money and (as hard as it might be to believe) my car that I just bought and what would happen to it while I'm gone. I was told that the closer I got to leaving, the harder it would be to leave. But, for some reason, the Lord has blessed me with a desire since I was a little girl (I now realize how not normal that is) to go on a mission, not because I'm more fit than anybody else to preach His gospel, but because things will happen to me that need to happen while I'm on my mission. It's true, all of it: He hears and answers the prayers of His children, we are the disciples He has withheld for the fullness of times, and we have a duty to share the same message that gives our lives hope and meaning to the rest of His children (whether that be through full-time missionary service or only by the way we live our lives). I am ready to get ready to go; It's finally here :')