I haven't posted a real post on here in a while... I feel like a failure as a blogger, and as a woman. Not really, but I do want to make a post of all the things I've been wanting to say but just haven't (which may have some typos. Proofreading just doesn't sound fun right now, and I don't feel obligated to do it).
-Earlier this week, I was talking to a girl about the marriage equality issues that have been in the media a lot lately. Obviously, I have been blessed to be around considerate and open people (concerning this issue) for the majority of the last couple months, because I really wanted to just punch her or something while she was talking. No, I will never participate in any homosexual acts (because I don't have that attraction), but to listen to her assume so much about the causes for their "choice" enraged me, and I wish I would've thought of what I could say in the moment instead of after the matter. She said something to the fact that people who blame their same-sex attraction on chemical imbalances are lying because there's no way that can happen, and if they are allowed to get married, then all temple marriages are threatened. Maybe I should look into the research and facts about these reasons, but right now, I just need to be bugged and look it up later. I'm not going to claim to know anything about the feelings that cause a person to come out, or to find themselves attracted to someone of their same sex. I have no idea what that would be like, and I don't think I ever will. I can't imagine the extreme confusion that would come with being told that some types of love aren't right. On the other hand, I know what my faith tells me, and that is something I will not denounce. I know that the Savior understands exactly what these people are going through, because He has felt their sorrows and confusion. I know for a fact that all of His teachings say to love one another, so for now, I'm just going to remember how much I love my Savior, and how he wants me to love everyone, and I think that's about all I need to understand at the moment. My heart goes out to those who are living under such tough circumstances.
-I've been thinking a lot about the mission I'm about to be serving. It's weird because all the years leading up to this experience have kind of been riding on the mission. I've been planning and preparing for the "best eighteen months." Don't get me wrong, I am BEYOND pumped for the opportunity, and I know that missionary work brings miracles to people's lives, but I've recently realized that the mission is not the big picture here. Someday (soon) we'll be home from our missions, and then what? We will hopefully find and make our families, and THEN what?
I think the biggest reason that out Heavenly Father sends young men and women out on missions as a kind of training for real life. Think about it: it only lasts for a small portion of most people's lives; it's timed to take place before we are really set in our ways; it teaches crucial life skills like communication, integrity, work ethic, and most importantly, how to share God's love. It's easy to serve when you have a name tag on, but by the time you get back home, you should be ready to serve God no matter the circumstances; you should be ready to do it when it's REALLY tough. What a great learning opportunity we've been given!
-I need to stop eating so terribly. Today, I had a Reese's bar for breakfast, and then went all out and had a king-size Hershey's (with almonds) for lunch. Get this candy away from me.
-I am so glad that I've found the major that I need to be in. Every time I go, I'm like, "This is where it's at." The other day, I was talking to this guy about my life (unfortunately for him) and I brought up how I used to be an art major. He asked why I decided not to go into animation. I have to admit that, for a couple days afterward, I was like, "Man, I could have really gotten into that." But then I remembered how much I want to help people who have not lived as pleasant of a life as I have. I really hope that my art will come into play in my future, but I know that becoming a social worker is right for me.
-Sometimes I am in situations where I feel like a cannot be outgoing. I've always been shy, but I'd like to think I've grown out of that for the most part. However, every once in a while, it comes back and I just can't talk and it feels like I'm going to suffocate on the words that won't come out, but somehow I survive only to be crushed with a feeling of awkwardness and disappointment. Okay, so that was over-the-top dramatic, but it's still a problem I need to work on. Life, why you so weird?
-I think that's it. Overall, despite it's hard parts, living this life is the only thing I want to be doing right now. There's so much good going on! So, yeah... I don't know how to cleverly wrap this up. So bye.
-Earlier this week, I was talking to a girl about the marriage equality issues that have been in the media a lot lately. Obviously, I have been blessed to be around considerate and open people (concerning this issue) for the majority of the last couple months, because I really wanted to just punch her or something while she was talking. No, I will never participate in any homosexual acts (because I don't have that attraction), but to listen to her assume so much about the causes for their "choice" enraged me, and I wish I would've thought of what I could say in the moment instead of after the matter. She said something to the fact that people who blame their same-sex attraction on chemical imbalances are lying because there's no way that can happen, and if they are allowed to get married, then all temple marriages are threatened. Maybe I should look into the research and facts about these reasons, but right now, I just need to be bugged and look it up later. I'm not going to claim to know anything about the feelings that cause a person to come out, or to find themselves attracted to someone of their same sex. I have no idea what that would be like, and I don't think I ever will. I can't imagine the extreme confusion that would come with being told that some types of love aren't right. On the other hand, I know what my faith tells me, and that is something I will not denounce. I know that the Savior understands exactly what these people are going through, because He has felt their sorrows and confusion. I know for a fact that all of His teachings say to love one another, so for now, I'm just going to remember how much I love my Savior, and how he wants me to love everyone, and I think that's about all I need to understand at the moment. My heart goes out to those who are living under such tough circumstances.
-I've been thinking a lot about the mission I'm about to be serving. It's weird because all the years leading up to this experience have kind of been riding on the mission. I've been planning and preparing for the "best eighteen months." Don't get me wrong, I am BEYOND pumped for the opportunity, and I know that missionary work brings miracles to people's lives, but I've recently realized that the mission is not the big picture here. Someday (soon) we'll be home from our missions, and then what? We will hopefully find and make our families, and THEN what?
I think the biggest reason that out Heavenly Father sends young men and women out on missions as a kind of training for real life. Think about it: it only lasts for a small portion of most people's lives; it's timed to take place before we are really set in our ways; it teaches crucial life skills like communication, integrity, work ethic, and most importantly, how to share God's love. It's easy to serve when you have a name tag on, but by the time you get back home, you should be ready to serve God no matter the circumstances; you should be ready to do it when it's REALLY tough. What a great learning opportunity we've been given!
-I need to stop eating so terribly. Today, I had a Reese's bar for breakfast, and then went all out and had a king-size Hershey's (with almonds) for lunch. Get this candy away from me.
-I am so glad that I've found the major that I need to be in. Every time I go, I'm like, "This is where it's at." The other day, I was talking to this guy about my life (unfortunately for him) and I brought up how I used to be an art major. He asked why I decided not to go into animation. I have to admit that, for a couple days afterward, I was like, "Man, I could have really gotten into that." But then I remembered how much I want to help people who have not lived as pleasant of a life as I have. I really hope that my art will come into play in my future, but I know that becoming a social worker is right for me.
-Sometimes I am in situations where I feel like a cannot be outgoing. I've always been shy, but I'd like to think I've grown out of that for the most part. However, every once in a while, it comes back and I just can't talk and it feels like I'm going to suffocate on the words that won't come out, but somehow I survive only to be crushed with a feeling of awkwardness and disappointment. Okay, so that was over-the-top dramatic, but it's still a problem I need to work on. Life, why you so weird?
-I think that's it. Overall, despite it's hard parts, living this life is the only thing I want to be doing right now. There's so much good going on! So, yeah... I don't know how to cleverly wrap this up. So bye.
Good catching up! it's always helpful for me to hear your insights. you're a pro blogger.
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